Members „the challenge“ Shocked to see front-runner Natalie Anderson exit the series for a Wednesday night episode – and now, she opens up to the true reason why she left the show and the sad consequences.

During last night’s episode, host TJ Lavigne said N. „Survivor“ Blame was no longer allowed to be on the show, while she simply said that a „personal matter“ was behind her leaving. Talk to People After the episode aired, she explained that she had to leave after finding out she was pregnant – before she had a miscarriage after her exit.

While she and boyfriend Devin Perez weren’t trying to conceive a baby, Anderson was asked to take a pregnancy test after revealing that she had missed her period. Although she said she was „always erratic“ while working in reality TV due to the unique circumstances, the production wanted to take the necessary „precautionary steps“ and she auditioned.

„I didn’t think it would be a positive thing,“ she said, adding that when she learned that she was expecting, she continued ordering production to allow it to survive and compete.

„I know my body and I would have put myself into it. If I could sign a waiver and compete pregnant, believe me, I would have done it,“ she said. „The production looked at me like, ‚This girl is crazy‘ … There was really no way from a liability perspective they would let me compete with Pregnant. I knew it once I found out.“

Anderson wasn’t completely enthusiastic about the news, calling it „a really pity at a really bad time“ as she was in a position to win the entire show. After exiting production, she found out that it had been eight weeks and slowly came up with the idea of ​​parenthood with her boyfriend. But then, she had a miscarriage.

She told PEOPLE, “I had to grasp the pregnancy loss and be like, ‚Now I don’t have a‘ challenge ‚win under my belt and I don’t have this new ride that I’ve been looking forward to.‘ ‚“ It was really tough. ”

Although it has been a difficult journey for her, Anderson said she did a lot of work „to get to where I am now“ and added that she hopes to return to the show in the future.